8.11.03
i find that im frequently consumed with spite lately. have no inkling as to why that's the case and it seems like it's growing. it's anger and spite. somehow i think im letting ideas get into my head such that my thoughts end up being destructive to either myself or others. strange how it all works. pretty amazing actually. i feel like this tv character. let's hope it doesnt continue, or i'll come to the same tragic end as her. it's interesting how i can analyse my own behaviour upon self-reflection...i can identify what im feeling, the underlying reasons and simply link it all up. some sorta psychological analysis by denise on the denise specimen. quite cool. but there must be a way to do it immediately, when im feeling a particular emotion, and not upon self-reflection, because that'd only lead to misjudged commitments as well as regret. hmmz..i wish i could do some research on it. but then again, no point bringing up the topic of psychology again.
wonder how's sis. hope she's surviving. :)
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7.11.03
the bowling alley's perpetually full. thanks to the school holidays.
kinda bored. dont feel like doing anything and havent been revising...really sick of it. end up daydreaming most of the time.
watched heartlanders. hurhur. another of those 'obligations' i guess...
back to television again. and perhaps a game of freecell. -_-
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4.11.03
check out the timing of the past two entries. if only i'd been so lucky at the exam this morning. kcuf.
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lit virtually flew away on the spot. i am expecting the incessant nagging this evening. so much for the helluva effort put in.
i am fortune's fool. how apt.
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2.11.03
im so groggy. there's so much to be completed today but i havent really got the energy and discipline to get started. im craving for freecell. i shall play first and work later. heh.
aiks. so bored. nothing to say. im just feeling dead.
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